...to cry in the car on the way home.
because people i know get in accidents. because i see 2 firetrucks, & an ambulance at an apartment building, even if i don't know the people living there. because i trust people too much. because sometimes people don't trust me enough. because i miss my best friend. because the person i thought was a best friend wasn't acting like it. because people i love are moving away. because people i love aren't moving away, they just cut me out of their life. because sometimes i'm left out. because sometimes i remember awful things from the past. because the thing that makes me the most happy, people criticize me for it, constantly, & i don't understand why. because i'm scared to move out, & be away from my family. because i'm terrified to grow up. because borders is going out of business. because my stomach hurts a lot. because people leave on missions. because my feelings scare me. because i miss dance, & having a partner. because i imagine a perfect world in my head, & reality doesn't live up.
but sometimes it's not. because i have a wonderful family. because i have great people in my life who care for me. because prayer works. because i do have the best friend ever. because i like making new friends. because i have a wonderful job. because i am going to college. because life goes on. because i have a home, & i am very well taken care of. because i have friends who roast marshmallows for me, & make me laugh. because i can listen to music. because i can see art. because art exists. because i can sing, horribly, but i can. because books at borders are on sale. because i can read, & become completely enveloped in an alternate world. because i love the people in my life. because sometimes reality is perfect. because i am alive, & tomorrow is a new day.
so i cry in the car. put it in park, step out, & think of all the reasons i have to be happy; leaving the bad things tucked away in the car.
because people i know get in accidents. because i see 2 firetrucks, & an ambulance at an apartment building, even if i don't know the people living there. because i trust people too much. because sometimes people don't trust me enough. because i miss my best friend. because the person i thought was a best friend wasn't acting like it. because people i love are moving away. because people i love aren't moving away, they just cut me out of their life. because sometimes i'm left out. because sometimes i remember awful things from the past. because the thing that makes me the most happy, people criticize me for it, constantly, & i don't understand why. because i'm scared to move out, & be away from my family. because i'm terrified to grow up. because borders is going out of business. because my stomach hurts a lot. because people leave on missions. because my feelings scare me. because i miss dance, & having a partner. because i imagine a perfect world in my head, & reality doesn't live up.
but sometimes it's not. because i have a wonderful family. because i have great people in my life who care for me. because prayer works. because i do have the best friend ever. because i like making new friends. because i have a wonderful job. because i am going to college. because life goes on. because i have a home, & i am very well taken care of. because i have friends who roast marshmallows for me, & make me laugh. because i can listen to music. because i can see art. because art exists. because i can sing, horribly, but i can. because books at borders are on sale. because i can read, & become completely enveloped in an alternate world. because i love the people in my life. because sometimes reality is perfect. because i am alive, & tomorrow is a new day.
so i cry in the car. put it in park, step out, & think of all the reasons i have to be happy; leaving the bad things tucked away in the car.
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